Stepping into the unknown over & over..
This is the way I live my life now.
Sitting on the edge of what I know, dangling my feet over the edge into the unknown.
How does one reinvent oneself? - I now know, through a thousand small choices each day.
Its been a messy journey of discovery for me. First, had to come honesty about things I guess I didn't really want to be honest about.. Looking in that mirror at all facets of self - The parts of me I loved & the ones that I hid from myself & others. Shining light on all aspects of self. Noting here - light - speaking of love, compassion, curiosity, patience & grace.
This process is tough. It takes courage to dive in the depths of yourself, not really knowing how you will swim out. Perhaps it takes blind faith? or just being sick of your own bullshit & cycles that do not serve......I know; looking at my boys & thinking - what type of woman do I want to model to them was definitely a part of it.
For me it was a little bit of it all & really hitting a place within myself when I realised - the way I was walking though life - wasn't lining up with my values & who I really wanted to be. I wasn't happy or healthy & perhaps I needed to look in the mirror at myself.
I was then literally gifted a mirror (ouch & thank you)
Acknowledging I wasn't really being truthful with myself OR taking responsibility for the trajectory of my life. I was disempowered & had a victim mindset. The problem was always outside of myself.
Somewhere along my journey of life I had slowly lost myself & created a persona that was so far from my authentic self that living in this way was slowly draining the life out of me.
Commitment to self
From the space of acknowledgement - taking a look in the mirror, as well as taking personal responsibility - redirecting my attention & energy inwards. I began on a journey of Self Love & Acceptance.
One of commitment to self.
Learning what it was to love myself. How did it look? How did it feel? What were my values & beliefs? Where was there a misalignment? What did it mean to accept myself? What boundaries needed to be created or set? What needed to be released? What needed to be learned and/or unlearned? What questions did I need to ask?
A real passage of discovery was before me. It was hard, like really hard at times. However within that it felt expansive, full of potential & choices.
A new path or perhaps just walking differently on the same path?
Walking in a way that serves my highest good.
We are all walking this path to some degree or another. Each of us - our journey unique to us, but within that, there is common ground. Through our common humanity - which in all of us seeks love, acceptance, connection & wholeness.
I know that I have amazing humans in my life that connect me with all these energies - but it is my life's teachings to recognise & find this within myself.
Recognising my innate wholeness, potential, worth, power.
There is my gift, there is my lesson. From there all things grow.
The commitment to my evolution.
With love from me to you on yours,
Come with me as I share my findings - it is through the sharing of our stories that we share maps with each other of healing, learning, growing, empowerment & love.
Millisa xo
